2010 - Here We Go...

Okay, I know I haven't been making any great appearances lately. Having 4 kids does not necessarily lend itself to a lot of free time, especially during the holiday season. Throw a nice size cold on top of that, and well - I have my hands full enough - of kleenex & baby wipes & gift wrap - oh my!

Not to mention I am still holdin' down that full-time job trying to save the world...

um, yeah... ok, so I work in HR... I guess it's not all that heroic or glamorous.

*sigh*

A woman can dream, can't she?

So... I guess like most of the masses, I do have some resolutions of my own... so here goes...


My Top 10 Resolutions of 2010:

10. Clean my damn house - all of it - every little spec of it.

9. Make more pieces, and get some sold. (I haven't been doing it lately at all.) :(

8. Get a raise... or a new job.

7. Volunteer to educate about domestic violence.

6. Not being so high-strung. (I am not my mother.)

5. Get the boy potty trained.

4. Spend more quality time with the children. Note to self: Watching TV is not quality time.

3. Have real birthday parties for the kids... even if it kills me and my anti-social, anti-materialistic, non-conformist nature. It's not about me - it's about them.

2. Don't stress out... don't stress out... don't stress out... it's going to be alright.

1. Lose 45 lbs by May.


There it is... my top 10 resolutions. I don't know if I can do it, but I'm gonna try.

Man, I'm tired already.

Beautiful

"One day in retrospect the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful"
– Sigmund Freud

But Why?


I read this quote, and there was something about it that struck a chord with me. I couldn't pin point it, couldn't figure it out. I kept thinking about it - I knew in my heart that it was true, or at the very least there was some truth to it.

Maybe it's because during those years of struggle you find out what is most important. You find out who you are, and what you - at your core - really need in your life.

Maybe it's because during those years of struggle you are forced to grow. Grow or give up. I choose to grow. And most of us do, whether we realize it or not.

Maybe it's because during those years of struggle you find out how strong you are. I thought that I could be strong if it came down to it, but it didn't stop me from being scared. What I learned/realized is that during times of struggle, you often do not think about how strong you are. You are just trying to survive. Survive and make it through the day to the next. Looking back, I almost can't believe how strong I was.

Maybe it's because after those years of struggle you can really and truly appreciate everything you have in your life. You can appreciate how far you've come and how much you've grown.

Maybe it's because after those years of struggle you can appreciate the little things in life that you may have forgotten. You appreciate your family. Your friends. Your LIFE.

Maybe it's because after the years of struggle you realize what life is really about, and you learn to love it and appreciate it for all it's worth.



And for some reason, I suppose that even though there are times when I get caught up in the daily stuff that is my life, I do appreciate all of it. I really do.



And that's what makes it beautiful. Truly. Beautiful.